UPD 26/10/2023: I find this blog very funny and a very relatable pasta for some of us, so rather than archiving it, I'll just post this. By the way, please to all the people out there. Don't feel like practicing CP a burden. It's something you should enjoy, and if you don't please quit. My relationship with my father doesn't get any better since I've posted this two years ago. But at least now that I'm turning 21 makes my brain a bit more considerate to people.

Hi everyone. Competitive programming is an entertaining activity. I love it, and it really helps me even in my daily university courses I had. I've been doing CP for 5 years (well, I had breaks in between and other stuff to do and study besides doing cp).

This post is not a rant or a "hello sir, can you help me improve in cp"-type of post. I just wanna share some story that makes me sad. But don't feel pity for me and say I'm a crybaby and I should get good. I'm in catch with my goal and trying my best.

I don't really care about people looking down at me and my rating (like I'm currently now an expert with a 1700 rating). But one thing that had me really sad was that my father kept putting expectations on me, and I really am feeling disturbed by that.

Well, since I was in elementary school, my father seemed to be "obsessed" or like feeling fire with olympiads like math and informatics. (yes, I'm Asian, lol). I'm not really good at both. But anyway, he knows my cf handle, and I think constantly checking on my account and/or contest history. Until now.

Lmao, it's just not only once. Sometimes he keeps on bringing that "He is feeling sad, not feeling like eating and/or doing anything because his recent contest sucks" to everyone on the table while we're having lunch or dinner.

Like dude, I don't even take my rating or performance as a thought anymore.

Welp, recently my rating went downhill like real bad (5 consecutive bricks). This evening he brought up this topic in dinner "Things I don't understand why people do." Guess what? one thing that brought down my mood was "Lowering down your own codeforces rating." He said that while I was munching my delicious fried rice.

Dude, like what? I wasn't even doing it on purpose. In my opinion, the recent contests were hard, and I made some silly mistakes (not an excuse for being stupid). But still, regardless of the difficulty. What's wrong with me not being as good as I was? Now not only my friends, but even my family is ratist?!?!?!

Anyway, this is just a story lol. I'm not making an antagonist from my POV here. Please don't hate my father or me. My father is a nice person. I believe I can't meet my current lovely CP teachers, mentors, seniors, juniors, and friends without him. I can't have had these really fun experiences if it weren't because of his goals. (lmao maybe I would ended up in medical school rn idk)

But still, if any of you have a sad/fun experience in your daily life because of CP, please do share it! I'd be really happy to hear it!

PS: this is my alt, I used to keep my main account at the best rating, but now I don't really care about rating anymore, pls don't ban or stalk me