I have genuinely hit rock bottom in terms of mentality and keeping it the f**k together during contests. I'm literally writing this during contest time because I don't even care to further try. My last 7 or so contests have gone so dogs**t that I genuinely can not even bring myself to try any longer. And it's not even because of a lack of practice -- I have done over 100 CSES problems, > 200 USACO Bronze and Silver problems, and 300+ on codeforces. Yet still, I manage to s**t the f**king bed during every real contest lately. While, on the other hand, I perform perfectly fine in virtual contests (expert level).