not the contest but contestant being competitive

*1500 rating problem not much feel like *1500 problem 2 years ago

the fact that my improvement over time is less than overall population improvement

really make me depressive, realize that even get blue title is hard for me.

aside that my performance on virtual-participation (from old contest) is getter better.

so it's really weird

I lost all recent contests and my rating goes down the drain

dreaming of being bluecoder completely scattered,

it's extremely hard to continue practice

has anyone experience similar situation? and how did you overcome?